The past few weeks have been a period of reflection and awarenesses. I have come to the point where I appreciate everything I have experienced so far, including some really intense and ugly truths about myself. To be grateful for these is something I could not have imagined possible, even six months ago.
Real healing begins when we seriously look at the motivation behind our choices. Do we give because it comes from the heart with no expectation, or is it for a sense of approval, acceptance or control. They’re not easy questions to ask or answer. But no real growth can occur without the courage and humility to go there.
Anytime we look outside of ourselves, blame others for our circumstances or results, judge others behavior as if we know better, we are only distracting ouselves from our own truth. In this way, we are contributing to the pain of isolation and sense of separation… the root of all suffering.
It really is as simple as accepting all aspects of ourselves, the light and the darkness. You can’t know one without the other. Constantly longing for the light, cuts off connection to the dark. This creates more of the dark. The saying what you resist persists is a prime example here. Awareness is key.
For example, my mother is afraid to be alone. This is unconscious and she keeps making subconscious choices that result in exactly this manifestation of what she does not want. If she could make friends with the scared part of herself, face the fear head on,find it in her heart to embrace and love this part of her instead of avoiding it, it would not need to show up in her outer reality. She could heal the wound within without creating it outside. You must want to end the drama. Sometimes we can be addicted to drama, or comfortable with it even if it’s not healthy. The desire, will, and courage are required to break free of this cycle.
The transformation to lasting happiness and peace stems from a firm commitment to love and accept all of you. This includes any resistance to and from uncomfortable feelings and thoughts.
I just saw how my unacceptance of my lack of financial resources, causes me to unconsciously choose purchases to keep me in the viscous circle. My purchases were coming from a place of lack rather than pure enjoyment of what I bought.
I naively belived the spiritual path would be easy. This being said, I have never felt such spontaneous lasting peace and happiness from these revelations.
It feels amazing to know how this is possible for everyone. The opportunity to share and inspire the light in people’s heart is my driving force.